I love you Dad.
I love you mom.

School.

I tried my best..

B.SAI!
B.SAI!
B.SAI!
B.SAI!
B.SAI!
B.SAI!
B.SAI!
B.SAI!
B.SAI!

:)

I'm seeing needles tomorrow morning, again
Injections, blood test, medications.
I live for the doctors, right.

I went to school with a very grumpy face today
Daddy drove me to school, did assignment with the usual Keith Cass Teddy and Leonard
Ljs for lunch, swear all of them are damn funny hahahaha
Keith tried to lick the cheese while I was eating and thought I did not notice
Leonard and Teddy kept playing with each other
I laughed so hard at them
Then they laughed at me because I look like hamster when I eat. Karma.
L4d next, I think we all very gek kiang hahaha

I am very the bored now :(

I'm a different person from yesterday
Thank you, I am what all made me into.

I just wanna take a little breather

Monday's color is blue, very blue..

This morning I wake up feeling so fucking lousy and there is no one around for me. I scroll down my phone's contact list, I have no idea who to talk to, non. I don't feel like I exist anymore. I can no more fix in to any picture of you, or us. I feel like I have nothing left tonight. Am so glad I met baby en just now. I know baby en knew I wasn't feeling okay, even when she still have tons of assignment to do she still stay till I board a cabby. I wanna stay in school. I wanna stay around with Teddy, Leonard, Cass and Keith. They cared, so much.

You,
I know you ain't feeling well. I waited for you to text me but you did not. I message you in the noon and you reply you forgot to message me in the morning and you think it's funy. okay I did ask you to rest well. Nice. Waited for hours, called and texted you and got no reply. I waited in town till late just because you say you might want to meet me. When I make my final call, you said sorry you fell asleep. I hung up, you don't even care to call back. Just so you know, I'm still waiting for you to reply my text or give me a call back. I know I know.. This hour. I bet you are gonna blog again and say how you are so sorry you always cannot be there for me and you feel so bad you don't dare to talk to me. Fine. I don't expect you to appear in front of me right away but all I want and need is a few second of your life to either give me a short text or call. Uh huh Just tell me you want to sleep the next time so I won't disturb you okay. Know what, don't try to blog anything about this, I won't bother. This time, if you really think you don't have face to face me or to talk to me again, then forever don't. I doubt you know what is wrong now. My bad. My karma. But whatever, I'm just feeling so freaking disappointed and lost and bad and arghhhhhh Imma head out now.

Now tell me, what are you?

I won't behave like this if I don't care.
Time check! 4.40Am

Like a battlefield
I'm sorry for crying
Love's not enough when you say it
Don't you know you've gotta mean it
Screwing up the best thing ever
Is something you'll regret forever

hiding away losing the day
as if it doesn't really matter
saying goodbye, scared to say why
the fading will shadow over
show me some faith now
trust me somehow
why are we keeping a secret
why are we hiding ourselves away
anyway we can't hide away
i don't wanna fake it
i wanna make you believe
what i'm saying
i won't let you hide away
yeah
where do we go
how do we know
what we are really after
sometimes it's clear when you're here
nothing can shadow over
i need some faith now to trust you somehow
what i say
maybe i, maybe i, maybe i'm losing
maybe i, maybe i, maybe i'm ok
turn around, look around, go around in circle
to run away, drift away, don't hide away
oh what i say
believe what i say
hide away
hiding away losing a day

I just want you to know who I am..

I think.. I'm sad.

GET ME A PUPPY A DOG!!

I want a puppy!!!!

Now, Just for laughs (Below)







HAHAHAHAHAH!

I is very hungry now
I look like this when I found Oreo on my table a few minutes ago

28th.
Love you, B sai.

I am very bored now and I can't get to sleep.
Candy is happily sleeping with her smelly already :(
By the way, I nua-ed at home for 2days already
I have no idea why I canceled all the meet ups
My dad and mom bought me foodssssss
They are forgiven luh :) For making me cry.

PS: Yes, Food can buy me over.

Edited:
Keith finally stopped scaring me with "xiao ming"
She is also now, forgiven by me :)

24th May Sunday

Keith is very hardworking she taught me accounting :0
She think she very funny some more

So I was sleeping half way and my cell rang..

Keith:"Eh hello!"
Me:"Yes what"
Keith"Wake up leh! We go study"
Me:"See how la, what time?"
Keith:"Let you choose"
Me:"Okay I text you a while later"

-Hung up-

Around 5minutes later.. My cell phone rang again..

Keith:" hey why not like that la.."
Me:" Like that what"
Keith:" Go take your passport!"
Me:" For what?!!"
Keith:"WE GO JB EAT BA GU TEH! STEADY OR NOT!"
Me:" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA You serious ? -..- "
Keith:" YES. LETS GO"
Me:" Okay I meet you 5.30pm Plaza Sing"
Keith:"K lo"

-Ended-

She even made me walk from National Library to PS. Torture man
L4d after dinner with Candy, Candy's friend till 4am.
Candy complains that I did not save anyone and ran off myself. Sorry luh
FUNNY PART
Candy kept laughing at me for trying to aim from high but never kill the hunter after using all the bullets
Her friend ming zhu laughed even harder when she knew about me killing Candy instead of the Hunter
I was damn mean, I went over to act like I'm helping Keith with killing the zombie after I killed Candy.
Candy herself kept calling the wrong name and ask the wrong person to save the wrong person with the wrong name
hahahahaha. We had fun thou :)

If you lied, I can tell
Now you do and I will know

Don't make me feel disgusted by you, really.

EDITED:
WOAH SOMEBODY JUST TOLD ME SOMETHING
OMG MAN I ALMOST FALL INTO SOMEONE'S TRAP
OKAY IT'S WRONG TO ASSUME BUT.. HAHA I DON'T CARE, ALREADY.

EDITED:
Hi flirt. Tsk :)

22nd May 2009. Friday,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY CHEW :)
You won't get to read this
but one day I will make sure you know you are the best dad in the world!
My dad is better than yours :D

Town with Kayve, supposed to catch a movie but the timing's too late
Went spin, met Nicole Chong :)
As usual, bestf Ooi &co first. Hi then bye bye
I have to say Von look so cute when she say "Let's shake hands and start anew kkkkk"
Being Friends are always better than Enemy, yes? :)
OKAY KAYVE SUGGESTED TO TAKE PICTURE OF US AFTER LIKE HOW LONG I KNOW HER, ONE YEAR+++






















Sorry I have to to that to my mouth, It's fugly.

Night at the mesuem 2 with Candy was great! I laughed so hard :)
The King confirm funny The Jonas Brother cupid and The Albert Einstein nod head toy confirm cute!















Hello Candy. I have no idea why you take picture with me everytime the face so cui.
I'm so sorry I always vent my anger on you especially in the morning when you and mommy trying to dig me out of bed.
Your attitude and temper sucks so bad too :(
I know you don't mean to do things that will make me really pissed off
But don't assume, ask, understand ? (L)

Days were well spent, I think
Classmates are so funny, cute and nice
One day Me Cass Bear Leonard Keith were all in Lecture room after school when boon our lecturer came in..
Boon: "what are you guys doing here?"
Bear: " Slacking only "
Keith: " Just chilling "
Leonard: -Looking at Keith- "Er kiao car lo"
Boon:"You all very funny. When there is lesson you guys are nowhere to be found. Now lesson ended, you guys want to stay in class"

I didn't mention Cass brought her camera to school everyday to snap us :)

(Left/Right : Bear, leonard)


You think Leonard gay or cute

COMFIRM GAY! HAHA!

Tell me how can I not smile a day in school with them around doing these everyday? :)

(Left/Right : Cass, Me )
I didn't mention Cass even took pictures of how we nua in class

Look at keith hahaha

Now look at Leonard


Okay don't look at me I don't mean to fall asleep :(

Now I have motivation to come to school because of these people
But I have to promise myself I will wake up on time for school with or without morning call
At least Bear did not give up on me, he tried his best to teach me finance
Finance = Money I happy but got Accounting = Number = confused = sleepy = sleep.

Can't wait to see

Candy tomorrow because we is going to watch movie <3
Kayve on friday I didn't see her for months already
GIGI Ginny next tuesday she is so lovely her letter/note for me so adorable n it's pink in color yay! :D
Jocelyn next week please don't be so busy I still haven' teach you L4D
Nicole Chong and Lao yu for L4D and nua together they super cute

Other note, L4d with Bear Bear Leonard and Keith like fun only :D
I was damn mean I left keith to die and ran away when she saved me from the horde haha
Bear Bear and leonard cannot stop complaining because I don't want to save them
I ran up the van/plane all alone
Candy laughed so hard because I didn't know I have to cross the bridge, I jump off instead

Met big sister today, went for tea
Got lost on our way to Bishan and we drove around paya lebar to upper serangoon twice
I like her car seriously
Met Candy, SUBWAY EAT FRESH for dinner

EDITED:
I can move on :|
I'm moving on :)
I will moved on :D

Knew it.

I'm so excited because I can finally see my big sister later! :D

I fell and hurt my knee now there's bruises everywhere and blood clot inside :(

You are just like one of them, yes ?

I completely lost myself

Don't bother to come understand me because I don't even know myself, anymore
I am not the girl that I used to be
I need a getaway trip, alone.

The reason why - The Click Five

Yesterday
I waited for your friends to walk away
So I could say just what I mean
I know we're moving fast
We're running from the past
I'm holding on before it fades away
Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake
And Baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love
Standing still
I'm waiting round to see if this is real
Cause I feel like I'm asleep
I'll open up my eyes
Cause you might be the type
Of girl that makes me dream when I'm awake
Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love
So tell me can this really work
Or will we end up getting hurt
Is this love or myth
So tell me are you in for this
There's so much than we can see
More than you
More than me
It takes two to believe
Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love
That's the reason why when you're young you fall in love
That's the reason why when you're young you fall in love

Hello I am going to blog here :)