Monday's color is blue, very blue..

This morning I wake up feeling so fucking lousy and there is no one around for me. I scroll down my phone's contact list, I have no idea who to talk to, non. I don't feel like I exist anymore. I can no more fix in to any picture of you, or us. I feel like I have nothing left tonight. Am so glad I met baby en just now. I know baby en knew I wasn't feeling okay, even when she still have tons of assignment to do she still stay till I board a cabby. I wanna stay in school. I wanna stay around with Teddy, Leonard, Cass and Keith. They cared, so much.

You,
I know you ain't feeling well. I waited for you to text me but you did not. I message you in the noon and you reply you forgot to message me in the morning and you think it's funy. okay I did ask you to rest well. Nice. Waited for hours, called and texted you and got no reply. I waited in town till late just because you say you might want to meet me. When I make my final call, you said sorry you fell asleep. I hung up, you don't even care to call back. Just so you know, I'm still waiting for you to reply my text or give me a call back. I know I know.. This hour. I bet you are gonna blog again and say how you are so sorry you always cannot be there for me and you feel so bad you don't dare to talk to me. Fine. I don't expect you to appear in front of me right away but all I want and need is a few second of your life to either give me a short text or call. Uh huh Just tell me you want to sleep the next time so I won't disturb you okay. Know what, don't try to blog anything about this, I won't bother. This time, if you really think you don't have face to face me or to talk to me again, then forever don't. I doubt you know what is wrong now. My bad. My karma. But whatever, I'm just feeling so freaking disappointed and lost and bad and arghhhhhh Imma head out now.

Now tell me, what are you?

I won't behave like this if I don't care.
Time check! 4.40Am

Like a battlefield
I'm sorry for crying
Love's not enough when you say it
Don't you know you've gotta mean it
Screwing up the best thing ever
Is something you'll regret forever